Since no one reads this anyway...

Well, I have come to the conclusion that I am writing in virtual anonymity because I never have any comments on my blogs. With this in mind, I find I feel free to truly express myself. I am so frustrated with my life.

I worked like crazy for four LONG years to complete a degree that cost me a small fortune, but I have literally nothing to show for it. I have applied for hundreds of teaching positions around the state of Ohio with no results, and I am so tired. I am very tired.

I believe that God has a plan, but I am so confused right now. What could possibly be the point of all of this waiting? I pause, but I pursue. I know I need to rest in His promises, but I feel so . . . disappointed.

A Little Bit Tired, Alot Bored...

Okay, well I am really tired. I believe that I need to get a different job. I am home way too much right now. The bills are getting paid, but I am unbelievably bored and tired. I think tomorrow I will stop and get the classifieds and see what I can do for the next 8 weeks.

Well, I think it is time to find a new hobby, and I think that it is time for me to start hiking again. It has been a long time, but I think if I start small, I will truly enjoy it!

:)

Yearbook and other atrocities...

Have you ever met one of those people who just seem to rub you the wrong way. For whatever reason, they just seem to work at your nerves. They do not listen, or they continually interrupt, or they argue over trifles. "Did you see that red car?" "Well, technically, it was burgundy." Gasp!

Today was the final deadline for the yearbook. We worked hard to have everything ready. I small page mistake was made, and the rep acted like all "you know what" had broken loose. I kept saying things like, "If you could just give me a second, I think I can work this out." However, the dear gentleman wanted to keep explaining how this kind of mistake could cost us, and how this kind of mistake was costly, and, oh yeah, did he mention this mistake might cost us? It was very upsetting....

Anyway, I am better now because I started thinking about it, and I believe that if a person chooses not to listen, it is not my lose or my problem, but theirs. You see this gentleman decided to take a path in life that tells others their thoughts, opinions, etc do not matter, but he is wrong, and his need to be heard costs him daily. For instance, it cost him the account at the school I worked at.

So, this all has a point. I know the idea is sort of preachy, but, if you are that guy/girl who doesn't listen, take a moment and ask what your behavior costs you. Does it cost friends, relatives, respect, etc?

Tracy :)

I am so bored...

Oh my goodness, seriously, I am so bored--so very, very, very bored. I need to find a job as soon as humanly possible.

Good grief. I am so bored; I would willingly do homework tonight. Yes, ladies and gentleman, my life is that sad. I am so bored this evening that I would willingly write a paper for no good reason. Yikes!

Okay, I need to find a hobby. I need to take up yak farming or something. Perhaps I will begin a vegetable garden. This would be exciting! I could grow....zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.........

I am a Graduate!

Sigh....I have graduated. My days of writing papers and taking tests are behind me (until my masters work begins), and I am reading to start assigning papers and grading tests. Real life beckons, and I am at its disposal. I am truly ready to begin my career as an educator.

Now, does anyone know of a job? :)

Hmmmm

Sigh....You know how you desparately need time off, and then you get time off, and you wish you had something to do, and you think, "gosh, I might as well be at work." I am in that place fellow bloggers.

I spent yesterday and today cleaning and organizing and running errands. Now, I find myself in a very clean and organized house but bored beyond comprehension. I miss my students, and I miss working.

Sigh...seriously, I need something to keep me busy. Any suggestions???????

Cough, sneeze, whine....

I am soooo sick today. I feel like crap. I haven't been this sick in awhile. I swear I slept most of the day. I wish I could've gone to school today; with only two weeks left, I hate missing even one day.

Sigh....I am feeling more myself tonight than I did this morning; I hope tomorrow finds me at the end of this bug. I have so much to do before the sixth. I can't believe I am finally going to graduate! Yeah!!!!

Well, I am going to take another dose of Tylenol Cold....

Another Day, Another Migraine

Well, I am coming to the close of my days at Malone, and I am looking forward to the peace that will come with graduation. The next step of course will be to get a job to pay for the thousands of dollars in student loans.

I have really enjoyed my time student teaching, and I will always treasure the students that I taught at ECHS. Sigh....soon I will have to run my own classroom, in my own way.

Well, I am working on another migraine, so I am going to go take some meds and lay down.

Night!