Thursday, July 15, 2010

Exhausted

I am so tired.  I am tired of not sleeping.  I am tired of smoking.  I am tired of this summer.  I am tired of the loneliness.  I am tired.  I want to wake up tomorrow energized for a change.  I want to wake up feeling prepared to face the day at hand, instead of feeling like the day already has me beat.

During the school year, I am more in control of myself.  I feel like I have a schedule, and I can keep it.  During the summer, I feel like I am in the wind, and I don't like it.  I prefer the structure of my days.  This past school year wasn't easy, but at least I knew what to expect everyday.  I knew how my year was going to roll out.  I am eagerly awaiting that first day back. 

Well, that is just about enough whining for today.  I think I will go finish my coffee, and I will take a nap or something.

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